“The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one.”—(via idareyoutoclickthis) (via nostalgicbliss)
My last post got me thinking: what did I think about before him?
Well. A few years back I was obsessed with The Phantom of the Opera. For almost a year I’d watch that movie at least once a month, usually more like once a week. So I’m sure I thought about that a lot.. But I eventually got annoyed with it and left it alone. Then there was CSI, WICKED, Tanz der Vampire, Gaia, Edward Scissorhands… Very obsessive personality.
And then I met him and for the first two weeks or so I couldn’t even think of his real name when I’d see him, I’d think of him as Erik (the Phantom), my absolute favorite character from Phantom, I loved him to death, and that really freaked me out. Buuuut I got over it. Then I started dreaming about him… Almost every night…. And it’s continued like that for three years. And… Here I am.
And I guess liking him has changed me a lot.. When I came into high school, I wore my hair only in a ponytail (wouldn’t even dry my hair, I’d get out of the shower, get dressed, and pull it back. It would end up in one large curl by the end of the day). Next year I was drying my hair straight or scrunching it. Next year I dyed my hair, straightened it, scrunched it, wore it up in different ways.. Now I’ve put thin black streaks in my hair, I’ve been straightening it, curling it, scrunching it, pulling it up/back, I’ve had it layered, I’ve had it teased.. My wardrobe has changed from baggy pants, t-shirts, sweatshirts, and gym shorts to jeans that acutally fit me and shirts that aren’t skin-tight but aren’t baggy either (I still wear a ponytail every now and then and sometimes I don’t even care about what he thinks, I just want to be comfy). I’ve lost weight (I was a chunk before, now I just have some extra flab that needs to go. And I’ve lost it in a healthy way, no eating disorders). I’ve excelled with French horn (I never intended on making a career out of it until I met him, now I’ve been in Honor band and all state).
Wow. That was… A complete rant, kinda didn’t even stay on topic. Hah.. Fail.